Today was a day mixed with joy and grief. I loved a man the best I could. It wasn't enough. I realize that it was not about me not being enough, good enough, not giving enough. Being with someone who cannot trust in love, in the process of love, cannot see any brilliance standing in front of him, is hard. I believe that I am enough just the way I am. The tough part is watching/loving someone who does not feel that about themselves. It's like watching someone die. And I know that letting go is letting God. I have faith that what I cannot do, God can. I love you..Sharon
There was a pivotal day in the life with my son when I knew I had changed long enough for him to know it. The dynamic needed to now be equalized. He kept wanting to take it out on me. I got in his face. (with confidence) I told him this: “You don’t get to beat me up forever and be happy. Learning to love another will make you happy and like it or not there will be things that you will never like about me and that is just tough. I will make mistakes. But one thing you know for sure is that I will always try. So you were victimized. You don’t get to act like a victim and punish me the rest of your life. If you want to do that, then we won’t have a relationship at all. I am human and will make mistakes. I am not going to walk on eggshells anymore.” He got it. He grew up and learned to love. We cannot teach them to just feel loved. We have ...
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