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Mother's day!

I have seen a life unfold.  I have been the safe keeper of a soul that was never "mine" but God's.  I have learned to love another with all my heart. 

I had no idea that when I had my son, that my life would never be the same.  I didn't know that because of you my heart and soul would cry out to be the best I could be. 

I was broken and lost, alone and afraid.  I had no idea that having a child could give me the motivation to be the seeker of higher self, to be more so I could give more. 

Timothy Shane Stephens Taitano.  You have been my inspiration to be more.  To grow to a place where my sole intention is to learn to love more.  You are why I am who I am now.

Some days I see you cry out for more.  You ask me how you can learn to be more present and loving like me.....you are so much more than me.  Just look inside yourself.  The inspiration you gave me is inside you.  It has always been there.  You gave it to me.  You gave me the greatest gift I could ever have.  Your heart.  You gave me life.  I thought I gave you life.  I was wrong.  Happy Mother's day son......

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