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Where will you be in ten years?

What will your life look like in 10 years if you keep it the status quo? What dreams won't have been realized? What relationship will you miss out on? Who will have left your life? Will you still just be getting by? Will you still think that it is your environment rather than your mindset that determines the quality of your life? Will you still be letting other people make decisions for you? Will ...you still be living your life wondering, "what if"? Today is the day my friends; today is the day to draw a line in the sand and say NO MORE! What B/S thought have you let hold you back? What have other people in your life told you about what's possible - and you believed in? What victim story are you still telling? What story are you telling yourself about your life that you no longer want to believe? What part of the past pain is still living in your heart not able to see love when it's standing right in front of you? What unchecked pain is taking up that part of y

Love and Teach

Dad is out of town. My son is supposed to be staying with Grandma. He went “out” last night and failed to come home. Mom was in TERROR. She didn’t think to call me until she was in complete panic. Couldn’t find her meds and was in total “freak out”. I got it all settled, Shane finally arrived and we had a family pow wow. It was interesting as I learn to LOVE AND TEACH that I show up so differently. I taught Shane this morning when he leans into responsibility and practices seeing, loving and being there for Grandma that he is learning a very important skill. He is learning how to be a happier person. His not being able to do it perfectly as he makes his mistakes, that it is my fault for not knowing how to teach this to him sooner. I have his back, but do not take over his commitments for him. He wanted to take off this weekend on a road trip to California with Friends and asked me to cover. I said no, not because it was inconvenient to me (which it is) but that I cared more for h

Happy Father's Day

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGDA0Hecw1k Dear Dad, I write this to you today because I love you so much. I have no greater gift to give you. I wanted to tell you the awareness that I have gotten in this life because of the work I do and have done on myself. When we were growing up, mom was a bit broken, hurt from past experiences. She caused a lot of upset, pain and discomfort to us all. I get she was hurting. But what I learned as child was appalling. What I remember is that “you were to blame”. Therapist, counselors used to say that Dad was the problem. He was mean. They actually trained our minds to not love you or dislike you. It is horrifying to get those kind of signals. So what I have learned is that everyone has behaviors that are less than loving when they are stressed, fearful, trying to survive this thing called life, with the less than useful tools given during childhood. What the counselors did not tell us, was that everyone was broken, h

Mother's day!

I have seen a life unfold.  I have been the safe keeper of a soul that was never "mine" but God's.  I have learned to love another with all my heart.  I had no idea that when I had my son, that my life would never be the same.  I didn't know that because of you my heart and soul would cry out to be the best I could be.  I was broken and lost, alone and afraid.  I had no idea that having a child could give me the motivation to be the seeker of higher self, to be more so I could give more.  Timothy Shane Stephens Taitano.  You have been my inspiration to be more.  To grow to a place where my sole intention is to learn to love more.  You are why I am who I am now. Some days I see you cry out for more.  You ask me how you can learn to be more present and loving like me.....you are so much more than me.  Just look inside yourself.  The inspiration you gave me is inside you.  It has always been there.  You gave it to me.  You gave me the greatest gift I could ever h

My Father

I wanted to share my story. Real Love has saved my life. Tonight I spent time with Greg Baer about my life. He held me while I talked about the men in my life. We talked about how I had never had a man in my life that loved me without wanting something back. My father was a very broken man. He showed up for us very angry and controlling. I was severly crippled by this man in many ways. He never spoke to me unless is was with veins popping out of his neck. Fast forward and I am 50 years old now. I have spoken many times about how my life with him has gotten more peaceful and loving. He didn't work on changing him. I worked on healing me. Tonight I crawled into his recliner with him and he held me for an hour while we watched a full hour of law and order. He patted my back. I left and cried the whole way home. I had waited a lifetime for this. If anyone doubts the healing power of REAL LOVE, please sit with me and I will tell you how it has shown up for me. REAL LOVE mel